The Winds of Karma May Change Your Mind

Ah… the winds of karma. What we send out returns to us in greater force. Or does it?

My guides recently gave me an important lesson in karma. In meditation I was greeted with the news that I had been betrayed by a loved one and that person was given an opportunity to fess up or pay up. The situation itself was several years old and even hearing the news I really had no emotional connection to whether it had really happened or not. I thought that if the winds of karma were upon his tail, it would make more sense if the act for which he was being “punished” was actually something that caused trauma or negative emotions in the one who was betrayed. If I had no real feelings on the situation and just saw it as a “just what is” type of incident then wouldn’t it mean the punishment he was perceiving was from his own guilt and/or shame instead of receiving back what he had dished out?

The goddess of karma sent a clear message his way that the winds of karma would soon change his mind. I thought, “but we’re past this. It doesn’t mean anything to me other than what is. I forgive him.”

My guides told me that I was next. I wondered what misguided deed I had done in the past that I would now have to confront. The winds of karma blew and I saw a vision of a former partner. He had been hurt badly by our break-up years ago and the goddess of karma said this one was for the both of us. We spoke our apologies and plead for forgiveness, but the winds of karma blew harder. The heartbreak that had been felt was far too much for us to make up for. As the winds blew to nearly the point of no return a voice asked us if we were ready to receive our punishment for the dark that we had played.

“Punishment? There should be no punishment,” I said. “I know the essence of spirit and divine will and it is an all-fogiving love. I do not carry sorrow within me about the choices I’ve made in my life. If I carried them with me before, I have since learned to recognize the beauty in all that is. There is no punishment because divine will needs moments of pain and chaos in order to make necessary changes where things are not working. I know fully in my heart that although I was the catalyst for much emotional trauma in this person that once they were able to transcend their emotional despair, he found a stronger sense of self and synchronicities were able to line up in his life to lead him on his true path. His true path was not with me and in the act of moving on, I freed the both of us from a reality that was not meant to be.”

The winds of karma grew still until I realized I was looking at an elderly man with a funny mustache who just smiled politely at me as if I had just completed my lesson. He dissipated into the winds of karma in a tornado ascending back to the space above us. Good job.

The lesson here? Karma makes it possible for you to make amends or clear any disharmonious emotional baggage you have carried with you that you consciously want to resolve. If you believe you have wronged others, karma will bring you opportunities to right what you’ve done and remove the old wound from your field. These old wounds are heavy and if you are going to integrate more light into your body, then they need to go!

You are not at the mercy of karma unless you believe yourself to be. If you believe that karma is a bitch and out to get you- it will be! You have relinquished your own power to something outside of yourself. The act of clearing karma is not only the action of resolving past issues (at your own pace and in your own way) but also breaking free of the mindset that something is out to get you. In the 5th dimension we are aligned with divine will. There is no judgement here- only love and acceptance. Out of disharmony comes the potential for harmony and we continue upon this ebb and flow in order to grow.

What many perceive to be karma is actually the law of attraction at its best work. If you radiate disharmony, you will attract it to yourself. You are a magnet that attracts like frequencies. Now, you have to power to shift your choices at any time and begin to choose for the higher good, but the winds of karma will not knock on your door 10 years from now to drag you into the pits of hell for your past doings. However, if you believe that it will… it will. If you are able to move beyond your actions in the past and see them for what they really were- moments of disharmony for which the potential to create harmony was finally realized- you are already on your way to breaking free of your karmic cycle. Remember, when one moves from the darkness into the light you are often a powerful inspiration for others to follow your example. If you were to be punished after transcending that existence, why would anyone ever want to change? It just doesn’t make sense.

When you spend more time communicating with your higher self and integrate the lessons brought to you- it should all begin to make more sense. Not less. Move away from thought patterns and belief systems that are set out to confuse you. There has been a lot put out there just to cause a tangled cluster of nonsense in our heads so we don’t utilize the creative powers of the universe to its full potential. Once you start letting go of old paradigms, you truly do find yourself a free being.

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The Alignment of the 5th Dimension

After taking a break from blogging for a while to tackle some intense spiritual encounters, I’m happy to say I’m feeling grounded again. The shift is definitely upon us and I have been feeling the gusts of its mighty wind for a few adventurous weeks. While reveling in the bliss of unconditional love and synchronicities, I have also had to do battle with the depths of inner demons and nasty energetic attachments. It is from this incredible journey that I am brought back to home to share some of my lessons with any who are ready to learn.

The alignment statement:

Over a year ago my partner and I (we recently got engaged!) began practicing with various forms of breath work while incorporating intentional statements, affirmations and gemstone meditation. We had received a rather large piece of malachite from a couple of close friends a few years back as a birthday gift and had always felt very soothed by its energies. On a whim, I looked into affirmation statements for malachite and discovered that it was helpful in aligning one’s will with the will of the divine. I created an affirmation statement for follow my meditative practice using a slow, counted breath (counting to 10 during inhalation, hold for 10, release on exhale for 10 and repeat). The affirmation I used was loosely as follows: ” My will is aligned with the will of the divine and I proceed through life with confidence and higher purpose.” After doing the meditation only a few times, I started to more clearly hear my guides who proceeded to lead me through a series of informal (and sometimes very formal) exercises, classes and lessons.

I learned there was a serious connection to this alignment statement that many of my other mediation partners had not yet tapped into. I shared my experience with my partner who had yet to share in the heightened awareness I was now experiencing. After a few frustrating sessions and a moment at which he felt like giving up, he surrendered. He said, “Show me! If there is a higher purpose out there and I am a piece of this mystical puzzle then show me! I align my will with that of the divine creator and I shall carry out the will of the divine!” Shortly thereafter, he too began to have higher sense perceptions that were almost sharper than mine and I was a trained practitioner.

The 5th Dimension:

The 5th dimension is the dimension in which we align ourselves with our higher dimensional self and the will of the divine. Our guides are there to help us in our journeys. They have been there forever and they want to help us. However, since they are vehicles of the divine, they  cannot interfere with free will. You have to actively seek their assistance. The more you act in line with the requests of the divine or your guides and you continue to make your alignment statement, the more powerful the results.

Free will vs. Divine will is the ultimate battle between good and evil, light and dark. If we choose actions that are out of alignment with the divine (the master plan, god’s will or the greater good) we allow evil (demons, entities, or the destructive force) room to play. Once you align yourself, you are actively stating to the universe that you are committing yourself to working for the whole- whatever it takes. Now you don’t always have to act in accordance with the whole, but you must find a balance in it. 51% of the time to be exact.

Get Ready:

You will never become less powerful… well, unless your karma is out of balance. The flood of higher sense perceptions can be uncomfortable to say the least. Do some preliminary house cleaning first. What do you surround yourself with? Images, books, music and art that emit destructive frequencies will only bring more disharmony into your home. Do you have some personal work or shadow integration to do? Do you think your life is a wreck or do you have obstacle after obstacle jumping in the way of your goals? You may have some unhealthy energetic attachments drawing these experiences towards you. It may be helpful to do some service to others, some gifting or positive thought affirmations before aligning yourself. Once you align yourself the game is on. You are an instrument of the divine and anything that needs clearing will be knocking at your door and sometimes at very inconvenient times. Cultivate a lifestyle that promotes healing and balance before jumping into this. Find an energy therapist to help guide you through your process so you don’t spin out into a healing crisis. If you’re in the Seattle, Wa area come to one of my workshops to gain greater awareness of your own energetic qualities.

Life is Joyful:

Be present in your experience. It is all here for a reason and you are more powerful than ever. It is only because you are so powerful that you have the opportunity to be a part of such an amazing journey. Never forget that when you feel your energy drained, a little burst of honest and heartfelt gratitude will send some universe juice your way. Drink it up.

Stress is an illusion and worry is a virus best to be avoided.

What really is stress? Stress is what happens to us when we are faced with an obstacle we do not feel we have the ability to overcome. Knowing that we create our own reality, it seems rather silly that we would create any situation which we could not overcome. There’s no point to that. What we’ve actually done is probably default manifested- in which we’ve checked out and denied responsibility for an action and chosen not to participate in the creation and let others do it for us- OR we’ve succumbed to the viral infection of worry.

Worry is a virus. Worry occurs when our kidneys are out of balance or we’ve contracted the virus from others around us. The easiest way to contract worry is from our parents, family or closest friends. If you are surrounded by people who constantly worry- you probably will to. Now the way worry attacks your system is by attaching itself as an energetic thought pattern. You have the first thought that provokes the question of “what if…” Then your mind races with horrifying, life-crumbling, stress-inducing scenarios. This is usually quickly followed by equally damaging feelings of self-doubt and low self-esteem. “I can’t…” Then, you have the urge to either stuff it down with self-medicating behavior such as addictions, food, and destructive activities or you act as a carrier and spread the dis-ease to another close to you. You call your buddy, your mom, your grandparents, your partner and unload. Because of their connection to you they experience empathy for your situation and identify with your frustration. Unless the person is acting from a higher self and is able to guide you away from the patterns of worry, they begin to worry for you. Now, you have a partner in crime. Manifestation is always more powerful in numbers and you have solicited more focus in the directions that you ultimately need to avoid.

Wherever your mind is, whatever your focus is on and how detailed your focus becomes is a direct representation of what you are creating in your life. If your focus is on not having enough money and bills pouring in from the mail, you’ll only get more of them. If your focus is on how out of shape you feel and how tight your pants are, they will only feel tighter and you will only feel more out of shape. If you are worried about a doctor’s diagnosis turning out positive- it more than likely will. This is why we say, focus on what you truly want and have that you love, not what you don’t want.

I see a lot of my friends and family falling into bad habits, unfortunate situations and physical illness all because of worry. Worry stresses the body and the organs because the focus is no longer on the health and wellness of the person. The focus is in worry and the mind is running wild with undesirable outcomes. When I receive unfortunate news, I may experience a moment of shock, but ultimately my higher self steps in and says, “So what? We can handle this. Just see how you want this situation to play out and be thankful of the lesson that the possibilities are presenting to you.” Ah, yes. Exactly.

It can be that easy, but it takes a long time to fully get rid of the worry virus once it has been implanted. Perseverance will eventually reset the patterns and create new, healthier patterns which are worry-free. Write yourself affirmations- I do all the time. When you catch yourself caught in the web of worry- turn your thoughts to the opposite side of the spectrum and shed some light.

Waking up is hard to do!

Many of us are familiar with all the buzz around 2012, some calling it a shift, an end time, a new age, a new direction, the coming of the golden age, the age of aquarius, the awakening… It’s tough to get a grip on what it all means and not get lost in all the conspiracies, opinions and lore. The fact that all these opinions exist is actually just another indicator to what is actually happening. For if the question exists, then so does the answer. They are mutually dependent on one another.

More and more people are looking around at what exists in the world and asking what it all means. This is the first sign of waking up. We are a species that has been dreadfully drowned by misinformation and apathy. As we gain awareness to truth, changes occur within us that are difficult to deal with at times.

We are creators. Each one of us possess the responsibility to create our own experience of the universe. When we are un-aware of this, we create in what I call default mode. Whatever we worry about, stress about, put focus on (and our intentions behind it) manifest before us in seemingly random ways that never quite provide us with enough synchronicity to raise our awareness and just enough satisfaction on the surface that it reinforces the default way of being. Unknowingly, we have been asleep our entire lives. Enough! It is time to wake up!

You may hear a lot of people talking about levels of consciousness, raising your level of consciousness or reaching new states (or altered states) of consciousness. Some people associate these terms with pot smoking festival kids and yoga class. It’s much more than that. Think about what it means to be conscious. It means to be AWAKE! As we raise our consciousness, we are actually just increasing our awareness of what is around us and waking up to information that has been hidden because parts of us were still asleep.

Everyone knows the feeling when a foot goes numb from sitting awkwardly. It feels like it’s not there until it tingles and twitches as it wakes up. Well, think about that for parts of you that you didn’t realize were there. If you were born with a numb, invisible foot and then one day it started to wake up, what would you do? You’d be thrilled! Suddenly walking is made so much easier! As parts of you begin to wake up, it’ll be awkward and tingly and a little strange. Once you move past the discomfort, BAM- living- so much easier!

One of the biggest factors in how comfortable the awakening process will be is how much compassion you have for others. If you are self-serving and self-centered, you are playing on the opposite side of the team. Self-service does not sustain life and whatever does not sustain life, the universe eventually destroys.

If you are compassionate towards others and focus less on what you want and desire for yourself and put more focus into helping others or sharing with others, you will see a change. The universe provides the playing field for whatever we create. There is a collective consciousness that we are all connected to but to most it is still far from their current level of consciousness. Time is speeding up and more and more people are showing subtle signs of waking up. Take a moment and think about where your focus has been and where has the focus been for others around you?

It may seem like big companies are getting whatever they want and those that care for the masses are left with nothing, but that’s a perception still within the old framework. We have been taught that money, jobs, big families, cars, clothes… all these THINGS are to be valued and that status and knowledge can be attained with the right upbringing and combination of these things. It’s all backwards. Knowledge is completely free and universal. The collective consciousness provides information about anything you want or need to know- anything. What we’ve lost by focusing on these things is community and abundance- limitless abundance. It exists in the world today, right now, but it’s in the wrong hands because our cookie jar was raided while we were sleeping.

The alarm is going off- it’s time to stop hitting the snooze button and start waking up!

Here’s what you can do to be more active in your process: 

  • Find a guide or energy healer. 

Letting go of old habits, behaviors and patterns can be uncomfortable and challenging. However, the short period of discomfort is relieved by endless joy, abundance, love and knowledge. It is worth it. Finding guidance from a healer is well worth it. 

Check out www.singingbutterfly.com if you’re in the Western Washington area.

Other states, check out www.americanassociationofhealers.com or http://www.holisticnetworker.com/. There are plenty of other sites for finding a healer in your area, but these should help get you started.

  • Meditate with intention

What is it that you want to create in the world? Get a group together to find like ideas and meditate with intention for even just a few minutes once or twice a week. Meditate on your own each morning or evening and visualize future places, events, ways of being. 

  • Give gifts and grattitude

Give without expecting anything in return. Start a grattitude journal and make a list of all the things your are grateful for each day or each week. Pause when in nature to thank the Earth for providing this moment. Thank the bees or butterflies for their polinating dance as they fly by you. Thank the sun for warming your face. 

  • Breath work!

Check out my previous blog for some breath exercise suggestions- Just Breathe.

  • Play

Life is fun. Find opportunities to tap into that inner child. Laughter is one of the best ways to raise our frequencies and when we do it in groups, it has immense power.

  • Talk to those around you

I often find that once people start thinking differently about their lives, they often think that those around them will judge them. Don’t worry. Once you move towards full consciousness, others around you will either follow your lead or slowly pull away. Relationships that are not meant to be or are not serving a greater purpose may change. Allow these fluctuations to occur. Also allow new relationships to blossom. You will find that the universe will place just the right people in your path at just the right time.

I’m more excited now for the future than I have ever been. I receive my information from guides that I have gotten to know over the years as well as books and classes. I find that the closer I get to full consciousness, others around me go through changes as well. I know it can be difficult and unsettling- it’s hard to see the world you once knew become something so different. The more we reach out and share this information, the easier it will become for all of us.

I wish you all a safe healing journey.

Energy you attract… it’s a part of you

The law of attraction is pretty ridiculous. It’s true, of course. However, it seems to be the most difficult universal law for many to truly understand. When faced with any situation in which you are dealing with a person that perhaps irks you, look inside yourself. There is often an undeniable similarity somewhere in the way that person is behaving to an attribute of yourself that you are perhaps unconsciously portraying. Now, I don’t mean that someone who finds themselves on the other end of a violent relationship is necessarily violent themselves, but what they are doing is putting out a specific frequency. That frequency may be one of the victim, the wounded child, the repressed feminine, the femme fatale, or the Debbie Downer. These fragmented aspects of ourselves can be great teachers if we allow them to be. Left to run amuck, these personifications can be detrimental not only to ourselves, but to everyone around us. And the more we identify with these aspects, the more we attract circumstances which make these the most appropriate We all have met these people inside of ourselves at one time or another, but if serious healing is needed and we neglect to take notice of the lessons the universe is presenting to us in what now becoming a much faster, louder and indisputable experience, sometimes a little outside intervention is helpful and even necessary.

Pride is a bitch. It is a frequency, a state of consciousness that is still very much grounded in force. It will never conquer or serve any of us to our highest potential, and by definition of force, there will always be opposition. It can be difficult to accept outside intervention at times, but in the end, people who have wrapped themselves in so much chaos that have made outside intervention necessary, are here again to teach us great lessons: Consistency, Trust and Unconditional Love. These are  the elements that were missing at some point during their early development. And these are often the elements that we as a whole continue to miss still.

About a month ago, I had a very enlightening evening with my partner and a friend in which I experienced new levels of consciousness that are challenging to put into words. I aligned my will with divine will and fully allowed myself to be a servant to all, whoever shall need me, in whatever way I can best serve for the highest good of the whole. I find that the law of attraction has new meaning for me. For when incidents arise that a particular person iks me, I can very quickly take the lesson and be grateful for the gentle (or sometimes not so gentle) reminder that I may still need to do some inner work around a particular subject or event. I’ve also noticed that events or people that come into play are not necessarily attracted by a similar frequency in me, but a frequency within a group of people and I am here to help stabilize and return the group to harmony. No one is ever perfect and with all the lies and misinformation we have all learned growing up, it’s amazing that we still have that spark inside us that still searches for something bigger.

So what happens when you run into a situation or a person that represents an unhealed frequency of the whole? You respond as a whole. It brings you together to talk about and release your experiences in order to put the focus and healing where it needs to go. You fulfill and honor the lesson. Unless as a group your make that conscious decision to transcend that level of consciousness together, a few pieces will and then another few pieces will and then some will fall away. This is what we are dealing with on a universal scale. Our world. Our universe. We have all been (although to many unknowingly) creating our own little universes that this Earth has furnished the makings for. Sure, those who know the rules have played the game better than some, but no matter what we have greater ability in numbers. If we align our intentions together, a new world shall be born.

Aside from the declaration of alignment I acted upon last month, I also made a bond and agreement with several friends to act entirely as a community or very large family. We pretty much already did this, but it was never officially declared and for the most part work and money was always a private aspect. Now, we eat as a family whenever it best suits the family, money is earned for the family, every trade and skill is a gift to be leaned, shared and appreciated by all. Since this happened, I have been able to turn off the heat in my house for a tree guy now brings us old dead wood to feed our fire endlessly, a sweatlodge for community use and led by an Lakota-Souix elder with no where else to sweat (and had been looking for a lodge space for almost a year) has been built in my back yard and I am now learning to pour and lead a sweat ceremony, a surprising amount of prospective family members have emerged with amazing talents and gifts. Abundance is endless.

After years of my own healing, I’ve finally come to really love the law of sttraction. I know because of the frequency in which I hold my home and the vibration I maintain for myself, I can create a higher potential experience for an entire family. I have enough weight to lend a few pounds so to speak. We all do. It’s time for us to realize our full potential and finally understand how this universe really works. After all, the answers have been so plainly in front of us all along. We just forgot to pay attention.

Metamorphosis

You are an energy being. This has been recognized in many ancient cultures and is again becoming a more widely accepted truth about our universe. We have energy that moves in, around and throughout our physical bodies. Our bodies are weighted by the Earth’s gravitational pull and we feel matter as being solid.

You are becoming a light being. Many people feel this and know this to be true. Some of us have already made major changes while some of us have not. Some of you may be thinking that this is not true and I just ask that you read this with an open mind. Some of us will not change, but may later pass on to be born again as a new child that will already have been born into a light body. This is just one aspect of the shift that is occurring.

I practice vibrational medicine in Seattle, WA. I am sensitive to subtle changes in frequency and am skilled at assessing and manipulating energy flow in, around and through the human body. I can see shifts in frequency as well as hear, smell and sense them. Although I very much love doing healing treatments and helping other people reach their highest potential, I really enjoy talking about what I do and inspiring others to begin their own journey of developing higher sense perception. As we continue along this life on Earth and our dimensional frequencies shift, I want to be of service to those who may have questions about the shift, or are experiencing changes, to help illuminate what I can and make this shift a little more comfortable.

I can’t recall exactly when I experienced the first signs of change because I believe at the time that it happened, I was not aware. Once I began my studies in vibrational medicine, I was consciously working to develop higher sense perceptions. At first I thought everyone could see clearly from their eyeballs all the energy and symbols… I thought I wasn’t developing as quickly. Then, I realized I needed to go within and visualize. I learned the difference between imagining and visualizing and began trusting my intuition. The more I trusted and let go of believing I couldn’t see it, the more I could. Now, I have to remember to turn it off sometimes. It’s difficult to socialize and know that much about a person.

A few weeks ago I started noticing that my mind chatter (although I meditate often and have much less mind chatter than I have had for years past) had decreased. There was a loneliness about it at first and then a friend commented that she had also noticed this. My acupuncturist then told me that we experienced a shift beginning on January 15th and our gravitational pull weakened ever so slightly causing us to lift a fraction further out of density. What does this mean? We became just slightly less solid and in doing so, made an evolutionary step. As lighter beings, our ego is humbled.

Some symptoms you may be feeling during this shift:

Headaches and fatigue- can be caused by processing emotions or energies that are no longer serving you. Remember, time is speeding up and karmic cycles are being played out in rapid pace. Re-evaluate your intentions. Are you acting out of service to others, for the greater good, in balance with how often you choose for yourself?

Nerve pains-  May be connected to solar flares. Try keeping a journal of your body aches and pains and then see if you can detect a pattern between mass ejections and your symptoms. I believe that yoga is a big help for relieving this. We want to get the body moving and distributing energy in a balanced flow.

High Sense Perception- this can be any extra or higher sensory perception. Are you hearing or seeing energy more? Are your sensing feelings from others or picking up on more information that is non-verbal? Are you noticing yourself becoming more sensitive? Try and harness this. It may be difficult to do if you are unfamiliar, but see if you can find a workshop in your area or and energy healer to help you.

Eyes/ Ears- I’m noticing a shift in the lenses of our eyes and our control over the muscles in our eyes and ears. Play around. See if you can direct your hearing or sight on a distinct target and listen or zoom in. Are there physical sensations that accompany this?

Appetite fluctuating- You may find that you are having trouble maintaining a balanced appetite. Lighter beings need less food, but we are still very much grounded in our physical bodies which need a lot of fuel. This can cause us to lose our appetite and then feel very hungry. The healthier, less processed, less modified foods we place into our body, the more stable our appetite will be. If you find yourself eating a lot of processed foods, cut back. We may also be turning to heavier foods to feel more grounded. This light new feeling can be difficult for some depending on where you are in your physical metamorphosis and may be uncomfortable for some at first. Cleanses (nothing too extreme) may be very beneficial during this time. Visiting a nutritionist may also be a good idea if you find yourself struggling.

So what does this all mean? Well, we are evolving. This is a gradual process that for many has already started happening and will continue to happen over the course of the next decade or so. These changes occur faster as we place focus on them and work on expanding our consciousness. Others may not have any knowledge or idea that this is happening and will need the support of those who have already made strides in their transition to aid them in theirs.

Be patient. These changes can be uncomfortable for some and may send emotions running wild and the ego grasping for air. This is where your inner work becomes very important. Take the time to do some meditation and evaluate your intentions. Even if you just have time to do some breath work in the shower- every little bit helps! If you set your intention to shift your focus from a self-centered perspective to the service of others, the Earth and community, and then take a moment to have a few focused breaths or a moment of silence, the power in those brief moments balance the rest of your day. Being present in mind and in the moment is also very important. Be here, prepared to be here, to engage in this moment and nowhere else. Give each moment your full attention and you will notice the sacredness in all that is. You will remember the light that is within you and it will grow.

A journey began… a dream from the past

So last night I had another crazy dream. I did some breath work right before bed because I was nervous about today’s final. When I had finally grounded out my overactive energy, I went blissfully to sleep. The dream started with Cj and I taking a wander through this new city. It was beautiful. We wandered until we realized it was getting late and we needed to get home. We were looking forward to something, a good dinner maybe? We took this shortcut through an alley way and ran into some bums. We walked as fast as we could because they were eyeballing my purse. One shouted at us and reached out to grab my arm. CJ held my hand and took off running through the corridors of this now white building. As we ran, my feet lifted off the ground and I flew behind CJ. It was not as if I was really flying, but more symbolic of the fact that he was protecting and guiding me without me being of any burden. We escape and a familiar woman appears. She asks where we are going and I realize we are above the Earth and it is more of a question of “where do you want to go?”

I wake up- not really, but this is a dream inside a dream. The woman is by my bedside meditating. CJ is still asleep. She greets me with a kind smile and asks if I know who she is. I say no. She tells me she is my mother. I tell her I know that she is not my mother, she looks nothing like her. She smiles again and says that she is everyone’s mother. I know this to be true and she brushes my face with the back of her hand. As she does this, I can feel her soft hand against my face and also feel the sensation of my hand brushing her soft face even though my hand has not moved.

Suddenly I wake up- again, this is a new layer of a dream within a dream within a dream. I’m looking down at a baby in my arms. The baby is peaceful and I know that the baby is me. I also know that as I am looking down at myself through my mother’s eyes, I am also my mother. We float in this velvety, warm, soft fluid space being comforted and kept safe and I realize that I am inside my mother in the womb and I witness the birth of myself as the baby and the mother simultaneously. It is beautiful and the light that shines as I am born is blinding and frightening and painful but beautiful and exciting at the same time.

The bed shakes. I feel rumbling coming from the ground and I wake up. Again, this is the next layer of a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream. I think we’ve just had an earthquake and I wake CJ. He grumbles, “oh everyone is so freaking paranoid about earthquakes now. It was nothing. Go back to bed. Grrr…” A red light illuminates the bedroom from outside and we hear voices. It sounds like the military. I hear an elephant and when we look outside, we realize our house is in the middle of the jungle and there are people in traditional East Indian garb riding elephants through our backyard. The elephants acknowledge my presence. The are decorated in beautiful jewels and fabric. They are massive yet small at the same time. They nudge my house and I feel the shaking again. A group of young people are fighting their way through a river and harsh rain and the red light grows more intense. A voice says, “grab your weapon.” I look at CJ and we are both speechless. We must leave. My cell phone rings and it is a friend of mine- it is one voice yet many friends within the single voice. They need help and are crying. I must leave to help them immediately.

Now I wake up again. This is now a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream. I am walking down a hallway with CJ and we approach a large room with a starry night ceiling and dark blue walls. There is a cage in the corner and the woman who told me she was everyone’s mother is within it holding a baby. She calls us to her and opens the cage. She tells me she has yet to give us our fortunes and asks us to hold out our hands. We are excited and as she opens her bag, she pulls out two violet decorated merkabas. Words and symbols of light come rushing forth from the merkaba immediately upon placing it in my hand. Luminescent crystals fly through the air and surround me. Music plays. The information is coming too quickly and I shut my palms over it. She talks to me and tells me that these fortunes are important and has a large smile on her face. I hear voices in many languages, none of them English, giving me information at the same time. I open my palm again and see that the merkaba has opened and is now a vortex that pulls me into it. Although it pulls me in, I am also observing this from the outside. I am in space and this energy and light is outside of me.

And again I wake up to a red light again appearing in the window of my bedroom. I am more conscious now and am recalling the dreams that have occurred, thinking about how strange it is that I had so many dreams within dreams. I begin to get up and get ready for the day pondering the dreams.  A structure appears in the corner of the bedroom window accompanied by a wailing noise and a loud clash and as I go to look at it more closely, I can tell that it is something alien. A UFO. I move in closer and the window has disappeared and I am floating outside above the house growing closer towards it. It feels welcoming, but unfamiliar and I am a bit weary. I proceed out into space with caution.

I wake up again, this time for real. I realize that the previous sensation of waking up was the final dream within a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream. My heart is racing and I feel tingly everywhere. I see shadows and light objects in the bedroom and CJ again is fast asleep next to me. What has just happened? I feel as if I have traveled far. Did I have adventures within each level of consciousness? What was the significance of the merkaba? The elephants? Mother? The aliens? The LA gangster bum people that tried to grab my purse?

I dream a lot. I remember a lot of them and they get deeper and deeper as I get older. New sensations arise as I develop new levels of awareness and new high sense perceptions. What is the significance of the multiple layers or dreams within dreams? This happens to me often. I feel changed today somehow. A deep peace resides within… blissful joy.